What does my future lies?

MIDNIGHT!/ Wednesday, April 28, 2010

First must-watch movie after exams: ironman 2! Now who want to watch with me???

2 papers down, 3 more to go!! Mirco paper was manageable, I finished the paper just slightly over an hour and used the remaining time to check. But then I already found mistakes! zZz. Hopefully I'll do fine! Then it was the china paper. Crap one of the questions was the same as midterms BUT I made the same mistake again! *boxes self* And I didn't have time to finish my last question..the paper's not hard, but we had to write alot alot alot. 6 short questions, 3 essay questions, 2h. I think there's not enough time!!! ): BLEH.

Anyway, it's good that we're no longer acquaintance but friends now. I find it very weird though why you can tell me so much stuff online but not face-to-face though. Maybe it's not weird I'm just the weird one. Nvm. Not important. -.-

Past. Present. Future
4/28/2010 08:46:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Friday, April 23, 2010

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY to myself! (:

A big THANK YOU to *takes a big breadth*

1. Mr Chin! You're the first person to drop a fb messsage!!
2. Sally.
3. Siti. Thanks for both your sms and ur fb msg!
4. Jit Jin.
5. Mahindra.
6. Raymond.
7. Kenneth Yap.
8. Kenneth Goh.
9. Keet Yeng.
10. Lai Mun.
11. Jj.
12. Ron.
13. Jiawen.
14. Benson.
15. Camille.
16. Lloyd.
17. Kenny. Thanks for both your sms and ur fb msg! :)
18. Clement Tan.
19. Kang Hao.
20. Yeehan.
21. Kevin.
22. Malcolm.
23. Jeremy Ho.
24. Jocelyn.
25. Alice.
26. Joseph.
27. Vincent.
28. Weihao.
29. Shirlyn.
30. Weiyee.
31. Cindy.
32. Jasmine.
33. Nigel.
34. Hazel.
35. Qiqi. Thanks for both your sms and your fb msg! (:
36. Edith.
37. Jac.
38. Henrietta.
39. Jeremiah. Thanks for both your fb msg and your sms! hee.
40. Bonnie.
41. Junsong.
42. Michelle.
43. Kynneth.
44. Liting.
45. Clement Liew.
46. Nitin. Wahh! It was really nice of my classmate from 07/06 to drop me a msg on fb!
47. Andy.
48. Ariel.
49. Mengqi.
50. Tengyong.
51. Teck koon aka 1241.
52. Jeremy.
53. Wei Siong.
54. Hehao.
55. Emmalyne.
56. Tze Yin.
57. Yuan Wei.
58. Gwen.
59. Ariana. Thanks for your missed call, your fb msg and ur sms!!! :D
60. Jessica.
61. Yumin.
62. Jiawei.
63. Zichao. Thanks for both your sms and ur fb msg!
64. Jenelle.
65. Xinyun.
66. Sidney.
67. Jerlyn. Thanks for the sweet note and the lunch! (:
68. Yiting. Thanks for your sms and the lunch together! I appreciated the "surprise". Haha.
69. Edwin.
70. Amanda.
71. Simin.
72. Senthil. Where's my present?!
73. Grace Choo.
74. Yongbiao.
75. Mengteck. Wahhh!!! happy happy happy and surprised to receive a msg from him! :D
76. Lijun.
77. Clara.
78. Sungsheng.
79. Samuel.
80. Meiying.
81. Wanqing.
82 Eugene.
83. Eunice. Thank you. I love my present and appreciated all the work you put in! *hugs*
84. Weiling.
85. Mum.
86. Qinwei.
87. Wilson.
88. Tak.
89. Janice.
90. Diyanah.
91. Wynee. 5mins late but it's still accepted. hee.
92. Terence. 14mins late so you owe me a present!
93. Chula.
94. Desmond.
95. Gan Jieying.
96. Felicia.
97. Ian.
98. Corny.
99. Kenneth Yen.
100. Kek.
101. Wynee.
102. Huizhen.
103. Huiyi.
104. Krystal.
105. Agapera.
106. Xiangfeng.

Okay I especially appreciate those who dropped me a message and those who called me!!! And those went out of their way just to make this day special for me. Special mention to jerlyn, yiting and eunice. I'm especially touched by eunice. thank you.

It's a boring day today. I spent it at central library mugging for exams and didn't do anything special. No mood to celebrate my birthday actually. Nonetheless, I'm thankful that jerlyn and yiting made the effort to come and have lunch with me in school. And eunice's present made my day even sweeter, because I could tell that she put in alot of effort for it. At the same time, I can't help but feel disappointed that some of my friends didn't put in the effort to drop me a message. But, I'm still very thankful for the 106 who did! (:

Past. Present. Future
4/23/2010 11:21:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I must look very ugly right now, crying alone in my room and trying not to make any noise because I don't want my parents to know. I hate it when I get myself upset. ):

Past. Present. Future
4/21/2010 10:29:00 PM <3

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I studied at music library today and found the place to be really quiet and conducive. There weren't alot of tables, but not alot of people know about the music library either, so it wasn't packed. Inside there, I felt so guilty whenever I opened my mouth to whisper. It felt rude to break that dead silence. What I really about the music library too is that each table has a power point so I didnt have to fret about not being able to charge my laptop. The only disadvantage is that yong siew toh is just so far away from the canteens!

I'm getting slightly worried now that I'm lagging behind the revision I planned for myself each day. And I can't fork out time to clock my mileage either, so that's adding on to my frustrations.

Past. Present. Future
4/21/2010 01:42:00 AM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Friday, April 16, 2010

I had another weird dream again just now while I took a nap. I dreamt I was the ogl for sports camp this year when I didn't even sign up for it and the camp was to take place the next day. I kept trying to recall those camp cheers but nothing came to my mind. Kenneth (xian da nan hai cp player) was in my dream too. I don't even know him at all so I have no idea why he appeared in my dream! But I dreamt that he was working for manual logistics. I have no idea if this company existed in reality too. Somehow I was talking to him and he was partly involved in sports camp too. Everything in my dream has no link at all. And I tried very hard to wake up, but I just couldn't, until mommy came home. :S

Koped this picture from Siti's blog. "I thought of Joycelyn when I saw this." (:

Hallelujah! Amen.

Past. Present. Future
4/16/2010 10:56:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Thursday, April 15, 2010

Thank God! I finally finished tidying up the references for my project. Took me 3h to tidy the entire paper though! zZz. Entire afternoon gone without doing any revisions! ): At least it's done now and I don't need to look at it already. (: Spinning away again and my eyes are so dry from looking at my computer. I'm didn't use much brain cells for the referencing but I feel drained nonetheless.

Past. Present. Future
4/15/2010 05:00:00 PM <3

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Aiyaya. I didn't sleep well last night. I felt myself tossing and turning in bed. I dreamt that whatever I had prayed for occurred in the way I wanted, yet instead of being happy, I was fearful. I remember casting out Satan in God's name in my dream and half the people inside my dream disappeared almost instantly. Then I prayed again (whether in my dream or it's my spirit that's praying I don't know) and I think I slept more soundly after that. I don't know what this means. Maybe I'm too stressed out over preparation or exams or it's just a dream and I always have very weird dreams.

Chipped my fingernails in the car this morning while I drove to school! zZz. -.- But I'm in school real early today. (:

Did some conditioning exercises this morning and when I was doing the guy's style pushup my joints made those clack sound when even I bend my elbow. I hope I'm not suffering from loose joints. It's easier to dislocate my shoulders otherwise. Sigh.

Jerlyn commented that I'm a self-righteous person when I shared with her an incident where I saw this auntie littering and wanted to go up and tell her off for being an inconsiderate citizen. Hmmm. I guess to a great extent I agree with her comments although I know that has pros and cons.

And it never occurred to me that the canoepolo forum website can get hacked into, until today.

Past. Present. Future
4/15/2010 09:05:00 AM <3

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*shakes head* Why did I take international economics! zZz. I spent 10h going through just one topic. And I have 4 other major topics to mug for + 10 tutorials to look through for this module. I don't want to spent all my time on this module! I have 4 other modules to study for too. But I know that I need to spend more time on this module because it's very chim and the lecturer isn't good at all. Sigh. I took a short nap this afternoon in central library and I dreamt that I was discussing/arguing about this particular international economics concept with someone. It was a very heated discussion in my dream. -.-

Countdown: 12days to my first paper.

Past. Present. Future
4/15/2010 12:35:00 AM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Sobs. My planned 2h run turned into a 30min run yesterday. There were already dark clouds when I started running but I thought it would hold up. I was wrong however. It started to pour heavily shortly after I reached east coast park so I had to seek shelter. That and my right calf muscles felt so tight when running so I wouldn't have lasted for 2h too. zZz.

Because of this rain, I bumped into a kind uncle!! I wasn't familiar with the area around vj so I asked this uncle to direct me to the nearest busstop. He not only walked me there, he shared his big umbrella with me too because it was pouring so heavily too! Thanks alot uncle! (:

Past. Present. Future
4/14/2010 11:46:00 AM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Thursday, April 08, 2010

I'm so sleepy and tired right now. ): Slept close to 1am this morning and woke up at 5.45am for my 8am lecture and I was half dozing off during the 2h but shorten to 1h lecture. zZz. And the previous day I woke up at 4am to chiong finish my genes assignment that was due at 9am. I think I spent too much time researching for information before that. I only started typing my essay yesterday morning. Thank God I managed to churn out my 1500 essay before the deadline!

SO, I'm going on a sugar diet today! For the rest of the day, I predict I'll be munching on sweet stuff to keep myself awake while mugging. Without chocolates and sweets I'll be dreaming happily in lala land within 10mins when I stare at my notes. I hope I'll be productive and that my tired mind can absorb everything! Finals coming up in 3weeks time it's time to start revision, especially for my international economics. =x

Past. Present. Future
4/08/2010 09:44:00 AM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Sunday, April 04, 2010

There's still another weekend of spcpoc left, but for blizzards, today's the last day of our competition. We were ranked 3rd in our group, so we had only 2 more matches to play, and we finished both games today. We first played against SIM mantai and sadly, lost the game 1-5. Sigh. The loss was probably due to alot of personal mistakes. We had fast breaks opportunities but didn't capitalise on it, because of bad ball passing. And my long range shots failed today. :( It all went over-bar! Sigh. On a random note, SIM mantai really live up to their name. They were playing mahjong before and after their games and hardly needed to warm up! Yet they still managed to win us. SOBS! After a game break following the game with SIM, we played again, this time round with TP wo-man. Sadly, we drew the match 1-1 when given our capability, we should have won the game. I put in the first goal in the first min, but TP put in their goal in the last min. Haix. Perhaps we were too complacent. We didn't have a proper attack, and we didn't convert alot of our shots. We really had alot alot of opportunities to shoot, but we just failed to convert our shots!!! It's really very disappointing. There's alot more of our own weaknesses that we need to work on for nat champs, especially if we're looking at getting a medal, next to making sure that we're always consistent with our performance. Personally, I need to work on defending better, not stoning, turn around much quicker, convert my shots into goals, sprint faster...in every of my skills I still have alot of room for improvement actually.

More than 1year into playing canoepolo, we've gotten our basics but there seemed to be something lacking. I can't pinpoint what exactly, but the desire to win seemed to have diminished, despite us setting goals for this competition. It has to be a team effort to want to win a competition, not just one's personal belief, and then to put that firm mentality into action is something else to work on too.

Personally, I'm still searching for the reason to play canoepolo. I think it takes more than passion to sustain the interest. Side track abit, it was both the passion for kayaking and the wonderful company of coaches that have allowed me to love and continue coaching. As for canoepolo, the passion is definitely there, but I need another xfactor. I want to give glory to God through playing cp, but I haven't been doing a good job of it. Maybe I'm expecting too much from God. I'm disappointed with God when we lose our games, because I've prayed and petitioned to him about our matches. Yet I also know I am not qualified to be disappointed in Him, because I've caused him much more disappointments. And I know that in everything, God has a plan and will for us. But it's really so tough to overcome all the negative thoughts. Maybe I didn't set enough prayer conditions. Maybe I shouldn't be too focused on physical things but should seek what He is looking for. But I really think that God wants me to play canoepolo. I'll keep looking for the xfactor.

Ohh, and I sunburnt today although it was raining the entire day! zZz.

Anyway, I want to go watch the youth olympics games, especially the finals matches!!! Swimming and volleyball will be exciting I think but they're held on weekdays morning/afternoon and during that period it's wk3 in nus, so tutorials and lectures would have started and I don't know what my timetable will be like! ):

Past. Present. Future
4/04/2010 08:59:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Saturday, April 03, 2010

Whee! Dinner with meiying, janice, alice, eugene, charles, dickson, lance and ss today just now at the glasshouse fish&co. We haven't meet up for more than a month! I miss the changi peeps! The meal burned a big hole in my pocket though. Sobs. We ordered so much I was so full and we didn't even finished all the food! And I got pranked this time round...they celebrated my birthday! zZz. I was made to stand on the chair while they sing me a birthday song! Dang. My birthday is still far away! -.- Round 2 was at ps starbucks, where we explored with lance's dslr macro and flash function. Great dinner, because of the great company. (:

Day 3 of spcpoc today. Blizzards had only 1 game, against NUS High. We won 5-0, but there's definitely room for improvement. Once again, we took too long to warm up. Thankfully there was lightning so the game was stopped when we had 23s to the first half. We definitely played better in the second half. Personally, I wasn't at my best today. I wasn't prepared when Gracie threw the first ball and nearly wasn't able to get the ball. I must have been stoning! I had to sprint extra hard after that to make up for the bad start. :( And my shots were so rubbish! I missed so many shots, though I did put in 3 goals. And I actually allow wanyu to pick up the ball which was right in front of me. I just want to box myself for that. Thankfully, I managed to get the ball back after that. That situation should have been avoided though. Sigh. And I dribbled/pass the ball off when I could have attempted the shot or dribble when I should have passed the ball on. On a side note, I attempted a long range shot today and the ball went in! My first ever long range shot in a competition. Heh.

Past. Present. Future
4/03/2010 11:30:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Thursday, April 01, 2010

Whee! Spinelli has $1.40 off drinks today as part of their 14th anniversary celebrations! :D I got my large cookie spin for $4! Hehe. Spinning in my own world now!

Sobs. I have muscle ache from tuesday's training. Lizard seemed to be in a bad mood on tuesday and our goalposts was spoilt so it meant we had no games. We ended up doing quadrangle and sprints and quadrangle and sprints and quadrangle and sprints and quadrangle and finally, drive in shooting. Sigh. We just didnt hit our target of 50 consecutive passes in 10mins for quadrangle so we had to do breadth sprints. It was really really tiring. My face grew blacker and blacker with each sprint. Very very draining. And after water slot, we had to do 200 pushups. I did 160 of it guy style hence my muscle ache! Then I clocked 12km yesterday and now my knee cap hurts too. It actually started hurting at the 9km mark but I pressed on with it. Weak knee! And because I was feeling weak, I gym-ed yesterday too. I guess that explains why I haven't recover yet.

Anyway, call me a critical person, but I can't help but want to correct the grammatical errors written by a particular sp player on the forum. Changes are done in red and italics are the parts I would change/remove!

Hi,

There are a few things that everyone should take note to make this competition a better one.
ALL teams please arrive 2 games before your game so that there won't be any delays for the competition
Do make sure that no one is allowed to throw balls around the baby pool or medium pool. All throwing of balls should be done at the volleyball court.(50 dollars will be penalise no more warning will be given. No warning will be given and there will be a $50 penalty.)
All teams do make sure you have clear your rubbish when you are leaving Teams are to ensure that they have cleared their rubbish before leaving.
PS: Captains of all teams do make sure to convey the message to the rest of your team mates. Thx you!

Past. Present. Future
4/01/2010 02:54:00 PM <3

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