What does my future lies?

MIDNIGHT!/ Monday, August 28, 2006

Yays. My router is repaired! Like FINALLY. I hope it won't give me any more problem!

5 things to complete today:
GP essay
Econs essay
Econs DRQ
Maths integration tutorial
Organic chem tutorial

I'm getting into the momentum of doing maths! =)

One more month to promos.

replies:
jy: yea ger. let's hang on together!jia you jia you jia you!
jon.p: =)

disappointed. jealous. I know, I know, it's wrong to feel that way. These feelings will surely fade. If only it would fade with the other feelings as well.

Past. Present. Future
8/28/2006 08:47:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Tuesday, August 22, 2006

*Screams* Argh! Angry Angry! And all thanks to someone known as Jeremy Sin. Hmmph. I hate it especially when people restrict my movement and order me about.

When I failed to switch off the computer after 5 minutes, something which you ordered me to do, a command which I found in unreasonable since you had no intention of using this computer, there was ABSOLUTELY no need to use violence. If I'm doing something which you disapprove of, the most common sense thing to do would be voice out your comments and let it be heard, instead of ordering me. In the first place though, I don't see the need for you to control my movements since I don't control yours. But obviously, you have no idea what's common sense at all, and hence your actions. It's wasn't like I was playing games on the computer like what you do almost everyday. In fact, I was merely completing a proposal. And is that wrong? Am I deprived of the chance to use the computer to finish up a proposal? For your information, I would rather use my room computer had the router been working.

HELLO! I deserve some repect can? You don't treat me, your sister, as a slave or someone that's to be ordered around. Know the definition of the word bully? It means a person coercing others by force. Such an apt word to describe you doesn't it? Isn't it time you learn to be sensitive and GROW up? For someone who's 19 years old, you should be intelligent enough to know that violence doesn't solve problem. It only leads to more complication.

But obviously, judging by your actions, that definitely isn't the case. I can't bear to think of the conseqences if I had been less tolerant of your unappectable beahviour. More bruises, injuries and hurt? And I can't chose to hate you, because it's wrong to hate people and because you're my brother.

Past. Present. Future
8/22/2006 11:56:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Monday, August 21, 2006

Dinner was delicious today! =) My mom cooked alot of my favourite food today! Hee. Shall not go into the details.

I went down after school to the buffalo office today so that the company could update the firmware for my router. Alas, when I came home and attempted to use my router, there was no connection again! I'll have to make another trip down to the office again i reckon. So troublesome! Hmmph. Seriously, I think technology don't like me. It's always giving me problem.

Conflict's brewing in my PW group. Or rather, between kah ho and I. Both of us had a clash today. To be frank, it was partly my fault. My tone was pretty harsh when I lashed out at him. And my words must have hurt him. I do appreciate the effort which he has put in in collating the WR and know that he can't possibly edit everything. And I didn't expect him to hand in a flawless WR. But the most basic would be to ensure that the format of WR is correct. Which wasn't, in the latest WR that was submitted. I'm not blaming him entirely for the sloppy WR which we handed in, so I do think that he should be gracious enough to accept part of the blame. But apparently, he disagrees with my stand. So now, the situation is this: both of us think that our own stand is right.

Actually, both of us are right. We just need to compromise. And I beleive my group will be able to reach a conclusion. My apologies for using a harsh tone. It wasn't right. And thanks to the girls plus my groupmates for hearing my side of the story and then offering me advise!

Well, I shall not dwell too much on this mini conflict. What's important is that I learn from my mistakes and then move on. I know that I do have my own flaws which I would need to work upon.

Other than that mini incident, school was great today. The class was in a high mood, and especially during chinese lesson! We just kept laughing and laughing. bao sai. hoho.

I've got 4 things to complete tonight! Maths graphing and system of linear equations tutorial, chem entropy and gp summary. I'm gonna have to beat the sleeping bug tonight if I can't complete them! I can, I shall and I will! :)

Replies!
yt: okay! thanks for ur msg also! :) don't be so stressed out also kaez?
jillian: the conclusion-- city hall is a bad place to ask for donations! haa. thanks for your concern too!
xuan: I didn't cry too much I think. haha.
tweif: precisely because i'm his sis that he should treat me better lo! hmmph.

Past. Present. Future
8/21/2006 07:47:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Sunday, August 20, 2006

Exciting excited!! I think my brother is going to have a gf soon!! He's talking on the phone now. And I'm very sure that it's a female because he's talking in a soft tone. From the bits and pieces of his conservation, I'm SURE. He's trying to create a good impression on the girl. And they have been talking for at least an hour! Hahahaha. I think that it's damm funny. So so not used to his tone!! *um chio-ing* Can't believe it!!

Hmmph. So not fair though! How come he doesn't treat his sister the same way too? But always order me around HUH HUH? *hands on hip in a bu shuang manner* Haha.

And and my bro is going to have his driving test tomorrow. Hope that he'll pass! He'd better pass!! Since just now he spent an hour practising using my dad's car and deprived of the time to do my EOM!

Okay, back to my EOM now. Got to hand in my first draft tomorrow! I shall not be distracted no matter how much I feel like laughing!! hohohoho.

Past. Present. Future
8/20/2006 11:18:00 PM <3

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It's no use crying just because you're stressed out. It won't decrease your stress level anyway. But why do the crying come naturally? Hmm.

I did my first flag day yesterday! Together with half of 27/06, we went around selling hearty pins to raise funds for the Singapore Heart Foundation. The class met up at 8.30am,went to collect the pins, had breakfast at j8 macs then went to city hall to sell the pins.

After collecting the pins and collection tins, we gathered at the entrance of j8, near the optican shop area. Then, the security guard came up to us and chased us off fiercely!! Hmmph. He said that we were blocking the passageway and assumed that we were collecting funds there! But in reality, we were merely discussing where we should have our breakfast. So since we had to respect the security, we walked off reluntantly.

At city hall, the class splited into 2 groups again, since it wouldn't be practical if all of us crowded at one area. Half of us went to marina square while the other half went to suntec. From marina square, Yiting and I walked all the way to raffles place!!

I'm making a generalisation that singaporeans at raffles place are stingy. They weren't willing to donate. But of course, there are kind singaporeans too. The people wearing the uniquely singapore shirt sitting outside the esplanade had already donated to the red cross but then still forked out $2 each for the hearty pins. Kind souls they were! Some others whom we approached simply showed us the red cross sticker and then declined to donate.

Later on, kah ho, jia chang yiting and I went to the kfc at funan for lunch then headed back to the office to return the tins. Out of the 20 pins given to us, i only managed to sell 9 pins. Not everyone was willing to pay $2 for it though one of them bought the pins because it was cute. And the crowd wasn't there so early in the morning too.

ODAC on friday was enjoyable! 17 odacians went for dinner together at macs together! Yays. It's the first time, but certainly won't be the last! =) PT was great too.

As for the sea expdition, I have a lot to say! But then, I'm going to keep my feelings to myself.

Recently, I've been straying away from God. Not been keeping up with my prayers and reading the bible. Studies seemed to have taken the priority. But it won't remain that way any longer! No matter what, God is and will always be more important than studies. :)

Past. Present. Future
8/20/2006 04:14:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Tuesday, August 15, 2006

I've been wanting to update since last saturday, BUT, I haven't had the opportunity to do so! Been busy with my schoolwork and plus my router is still not repaired yet.

ODAC had a sea expedition last saturday! Fun fun fun! =)

More details in in my next entry because I want to upload some visuals today!

Pics from the sea expedition:

And we raft up in the calm sea!

My partner and I..sorry meiying that I hit you so many times on your head! Heh. I didn't mean it! But you didn't have to splash me with so much sea water! =P

Pics from the NISCC:

Hazel and I on the first day of the competition!

The guys team!

On the second day of the competition!

Hmmph. There's actually supposed to be more pictures but videos, BUT I haven't been successful in uploading them so far! Someone tell me why please? :(

And my zen neon hanged yet AGAIN! Booboo. Why why why? Now, it's struck at the blue screen. Grr.

More updates the next time round when I have more time!

Replies!
jy: yea yea! last year's parade was especially meaningful too. and I've wished ma'am chew happy b'dae! :)
wynee & jiawen: luckily you peeps didn't manage to spot me! lala.
jon.p: wrong guess! and bish! who says i'm in the last row huh?!
barnabas: heyy!! of course I remember you! How did you manage to find my blog?? Haha. We've got to keep in contact!

it's complimated. maybe I'm thinking too much.

Past. Present. Future
8/15/2006 10:05:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Thursday, August 10, 2006

Yays! Samsung has decided to repair my hp out of goodwill without charging for it! I don't need to go to the trouble of getting a new phone now. =)

My primary 6 photo! I can't remember when this picture was taken though...and where's my origianl copy of the photo (if I have it in the first place that is). I koped this picture from the class's firendster account. Hoho. I look very very different then and now.

at marina bay!

I'm waiting for the router person to email me so that I can update my firmware but I've been waiting for close to an hour and there's no email yet!! Grr. Bad service! That person on the phone told me that he'll send me the email in 10-15 minutes but he didn't keep his word.

Past. Present. Future
8/10/2006 05:03:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Wednesday, August 09, 2006

I've got a new blogskin! =) Isn't the blogskin nice? Credit goes to jia wen for helping me create! *claps*

hoho.haha.heehee.

fireworks are just so nice!

Sigh. Somehow, I can't upload the other visuals! :(

I miss being involved in a parade! And especially as the GOH contigent. Watching the parade segment of the ndp celebration on tv just now reminded me of the times back then, be it npcc day or the school's ndp or syf. Training could get boring after a while, since you'd be doing the same thing repeatedly, but you'd feel a great sense of accomplishment on the actual day itself.

I think I'm crazy. I'm half tempted to join the army suddenly.

Past. Present. Future
8/09/2006 11:16:00 PM <3

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Happy 41st birthday SINGAPORE! =)

A city of colours
Our island of opportunities
Our nation of hopes and dreams
Our global city, our home

And I'm proud to be a singaporean. :)

I'm a patriotic girl! muahaha.

Past. Present. Future
8/09/2006 07:39:00 PM <3

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When someone whom you respect uncovers your flaws and tell you, will you change?
What happens if that person is your mother/father?
Would you stay change or just brush it aside as a nag?

How stubborn will you stay until you decide that you should change?

When exactly will we realise and decide that we should change? Where do the motivation come from?

When we take a step back and anknowledge our own flaws and fear, what's next if you lack the determination to change?

As we grow older and have our own principles and unique character, how willing are we able to accept others' criticisim of us?

How often do we think of how our comments will affect others?

Everything is relative to something. But surely there must be some agreed guidelines?

Past. Present. Future
8/09/2006 12:54:00 AM <3

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The fireworks were so nice and spectacular! It was worth making the trip down to marina bay to catch the fireworks. So beautiful!!! If only it lasted longer, but all good things always have to come to an end....

Once again, the world is really really small!! Jia Wen and I saw meiying and huizhen at marina bay! They were with their class and went to watch the fireworks too. Out of the many many people that went there, I actually heard meiying's voice and then we noticed her. =)

Recent incidents have left me thinking what's the purpose of meeting people coincidently. There must be some reason why things happen. Everything has to happen for a reason. It's just a matter of whether you find that reason or not. Insufficient time spent with these people perhaps? Or are there other reasons?

After the fireworks, we attempted to walk to suntec to eat but failed. And so we waited at the bus stop for bus 400. But, the bus was too filled to accommodate the 3 of us. Hmmph. We spent 10 minutes waiting for that filled bus! As a result, we walked all the way to marina bay mrt station. All of us were brisk walking, trying to keep in pace with the slow-paced bus. Haa. Quite fun. But it was so hot!!

Past. Present. Future
8/09/2006 12:25:00 AM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Jia Wen's at my house now! Hee. After she's done with her bathe, we're going to watch the fireworks at marina! =)

Yays. Today's a great day. Though I overslept yet AGAIN, I still managed to reach school on time without needing to take a cab.

The parade segment went smoothly. There wasn't any hitches during the flag raising and yiting and I managed to remain zai! *grins* I think we did a good job. Yupp. And the indoor celebration ended at 10am. We were then dismissed! Hmm. The national day celebration in aj pales in comparison with cedar. One wasn't able to feel the atmosphere of being patriotic and getting high. Perhaps it's due to the lack of audience interaction or perhaps it's because we've outgrown the phrase where everyone sings along to the national day songs and is enthusiastic about it. Whatever it is, now I truly appreciate cedar's celebrations. It was grand.

After dismissal, I went to selina's house, where we stayed for an hour or so. Later on, we went to j8 where she collected the cookie for wee kiat and we had lunch. Then, we headed to town! Hoho. And shopped, also for wee kiat's present and a pair of shoes. Somehow, although we didn't walk alot, I was tired very quickly! No more stamina for shopping! Boo. But I think it's cause I was carrying my not so heavy but not light either full u!

And then while we had a drink at far east BK, I went to find jia wen and wynee. Was supposed to go out with them today, including meiying, xiang feng and joleen but I sort of ps them. Sorry! =X Wynee was waiting at for her bus to go home then, so jiawen and I pei her wait. And then we decided to go watch the fireworks today! :)

Past. Present. Future
8/08/2006 07:09:00 PM <3

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What a way to start a Monday morning. For the first time of my 12 years of school life, I actually woke up late. The alarm clock didn't ring (okay maybe it did and I pressed snooze but it didn't ring after that!) and my mom overslept. Therefore, I woke up at 6.35am. And I had to rush. I didn't have time to bathe and have a proper breakfast. I simply brushed my teeth and packed my bag and left for school. The fact that aj is located in yio chu kang doesn't really help much. There was no alternative. Take a cab or i'll be late for school.

At times like this, I wonder why I chose aj. It's so far away! But, life has no room for regrets. Nothing can be done even if you regret. Distance is a price which I must pay for the path which I've chosen.

And so, I had to take a cab. Despite waiting from 6.50am, I only managed to catch a cab at 7.03am. Thus, i had to play the subcharge of $2. And thus, my taxi fare of $11.20 cost me more than a day's allowance. Urgh. :(

At least, things didn't get any worse than this. The rest of the day turned out to be quite good. I didn't dozed off during lectures and made good use of my breaks to finish up my work. But, waking up late did spoil my mood during the first period. I just felt like hitting someone.

Surprisingly, I came home early today. Early by definition means reaching home before the sky turned dark, ie before dinner or before 1830h, whichever is earlier. In fact, I think today is the first time in term 3, excluding common test week, that i'm home early. A rare sight.

Initially, after resting for a while, I wanted to go for a jog, since the last time I jogged was probably weeks ago, but then I felt lazy! =P And I suddenly recalled that I've yet to collect my lenses from the optican. So I decided to cycle to the optican. And I did it from my home to bedok! :) The journey to and for took approximately an hour I think. Although it was during the peak hours where human traffic was high, it wasnt that bad an experience. It was great going down the slope though cycling up was another matter altogether.

Past. Present. Future
8/08/2006 12:58:00 AM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Sunday, August 06, 2006

Hmmph. My computer just love making me do extra work!! I was editing my written report yesterday and my computer just decided not to cooperate with me, AGAIN. After I had spent close to 3 hours making all the relevant changes to my WR, I tried saving the changes. BUT it wasn't successful!! Sudddenly, microsoft work just decided it didn't like what I was doing and so hanged. Urgh. All my hard work gone down the drain!!! I couldn't recover my document either. And the worst thing was, all my previous work which I had saved couldn't be opened either. Therefore, I had to re-do everything all over agian, re-searching the sources, making pie charts and editing. Boo. The result: finishing my WR at only 0200h this morning.

Expect for that small hicupp though, yesterday wasn't that horrible a day. Hee. Jia Chang and I saw a swing and we were reminded of the simple harmonic motion lecture. So we went to play it! Unglam! Haha.

I had to go to the national library to search for a newspaper article for my EOM after that. Hmm. My first time going to level 11 of the national library! It's a nice enviromnent for studying! And it's such a small world too..I happen to see yong biao, jonathan, fred, shawn,fabian and ruo yi at level 11! They were doing their PW there. I didn't notice that they were there cos they were at another side of the library and I didn't go there. But then, yong biao had to leave and jonathan walked him out and then they noticed me! And all of us were surprised. I didn't expect to see them come down all the way to the national library to discuss PW and they didn't expect me to go there too. It's such a coincidence. Of the 4 million people in Singapore, who would have thought that you would meet someone whom you know when you didn't agree to meet them? But that's how God works! =) Then shawn and I went to have dou hua together!

Past. Present. Future
8/06/2006 12:56:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Friday, August 04, 2006

ARGH. I'm irritated by all the 'wonderful' technology advancements! My internet connection and my home phone have decided to give me problems all at one go! Grr. I'm too overly dependent on technology, and especially so for the internet.

The wireless internet connection just decided not to function on wednesday, and just when I have school-related stuff to do online! And now, the connection is back, but I can't use the computer in my room!! It's inconvenient to use this computer in the living room since for majority of the time when I'm free, my brother is hogging it. :(

And then, my house phone decided that it doesn't want to function too. There's no dial tone! And it'll only get repaired on saturday. In the meantime, we'll have to use our handphones to communicate with others! Imagine the cost incurred while communicating with the starhub operator to inquire about the technical difficulties you face, in an attempt to get your internet connection back again. Include the waiting time while calling 1633 and the holding tone which can go on endlessly for at least 10 mins too. Starhub needs to improve on its customer service. Hmmph.

And what's wrong with me? I'm getting too easily irritated nowadays, by small minor things. Why can't I look at things from another perspective? Not that I don't want to, but it's been a difficult task to do so this past few days. I'm a lost girl now. Where's my focus and motivation?

helps.

Past. Present. Future
8/04/2006 12:28:00 AM <3

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