What does my future lies?

MIDNIGHT!/ Sunday, January 28, 2007

I slept for half a day yesterday! After KOP, I simply knocked out. Slept from 6 plus in the evening till 8 plus this morning! I don't know why I'm so tired. KOP wasn't that draining...or am I underestimating my own physical ability?

ODAC organised a kayak orientation programme for the j1s yesterday. It was fun! My first time using the bandit! However, it was without the spray cover..so there was some water accumulated inside my kayak. Programme wise, the games couldn't be properly executed due to the weather conditions but nonetheless, it was still fun!I think the j1s enjoyed themselves. A bit of a pity that some of them got seasick though. I had to towed a pair back to the beach. Maybe it's cos of the choppy sea or that we always had to raft up? Hmm. I like my group! =) They're a funny and interesting group. A pity though that I didn't have enough time to ineract with all of them. And they always call me fatima!! NONONONO. I'm JOYCELYN. Hmmph. Then I woke up late yesterday too! =( We had to report to school by 7.30am and I only woke up at 7.10am. Therefore, I had to take a cab, AGAIN. It my first this year, but definitely not the first in my aj life. I had to spend almost a day of my allowance on the cab fare!!! $9.10. The cheapest trip so far. Damm. Why can't I wake up earlier? Why why why? If I sleep earlier, I won't be able to finish my work. And if i don't, I have a higher tendancy to wake up late. Guess that's a disadvantage of studying in a jc that's so far from your home.

There was supposed to be rock climbing clinic on friday but it was cancelled in the end due to the rain. Think it's gonna be postponed to another day. Friday was the first time I watched a volleyball match! It was a friendly guys match held at the mph between ajc and bukit panjang govt high. Exciting!! The coach from bpgh was so fierce! He kept screaming at the guys. So anyway, since odac ended earlier, we met up with jieying at orchard earlier! Kenneth and I were late though..=X Dinner with jieying, wynee and kenneth was great! We had dinner at far east, then sat down and talked at taka till around 9 plus before we went home.

Finally, I found time to meet up with anna on wednesday! Both of have been so busy that we don't seen each other for a long time. Chatting with her made me realise some things. I was able to look at things from another perspective. Anna and I had anderson ice cream while we talked about each other's going-ons...I do hope we'll continue to have time to meet up in future. She definitely a friend which has made a significant impact in my life. :)

The past week had been health week. We had fruits day, drink water day, intra house games..relative to last year, the health week this year is so much better! Much of the credit should go to publicity. It was super funny and hence could capture everyone's attention. There was a health fair on wednesday as well. Then there was this station that measures your fat content. I'm under the average range, I should aim to be under the ideal range! =(

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MIDNIGHT!/ Tuesday, January 23, 2007

The lessons today are interesting. Tuesdays. Hmm. Somehow I'm reminded of the book-tuesdays with morrie.

Mass civics talk was about sex and sexuality. The content was interesting, though I already knew some of the facts. Hmm. While girls think about shopping and gathering the latest gossip, guys' brains think about sex and lame excuses. How different both sexes are!

Chinese lesson went past quickly with us listening to some songs by liang wen fu and particiapting in a quiz. The songs reminded me of those that we listen to during cny. It's amazing how liang wen fu is able to include the important figues such as zhu ge liang and wang zhao jun in China's history in one song. Quite an impressive feat. The song didn't sound too bad either.

Jogging cum stairs climbing session with kenneth, meiying, jx and cek at amk park after lessons..i keep getting suan-ed by jx and cek! Hmmph. Nonetheless, it was a good way to destress, doing some mild workouts, in the green and quiet environment, with their company.

I've been learning alot in ODAC lately, be it during last friday's activity or yesterday's activity. Important values that I've learnt before is continuously reminding me that I should always know my responsiblities well. I learnt new games too! who what huh? :)

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MIDNIGHT!/ Thursday, January 18, 2007

It's just a passing mood swing I hope.

Whee! I played with the swings today! =P

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MIDNIGHT!/ Monday, January 15, 2007

My temper seems to be getting worse..I get angry more easily now. I don't know why. It's quite bad isn't it? Just today, I was suddenly angry at the chinese teacher plus xxx. I just didn't agree with the way the chinese teacher conducted the lesson. True, she was interesting and witty. However, I felt that she should have been more tactful? Maybe I'm just pms-ing. I should be more tolerant of others and look at things from another perspective.

Note: What I'm going to write is about what I feel and does not represent others' feelings.

Then there was them. I just felt it was only polite that they gave me some form of answer, instead of treating me as an invisible person, that I was non-existent. Isn't that basic courtesy? Maybe I was wrong, but I felt they weren't interested at all. They were acting arrogant. If that was the case, why then did you bother enlisting our help in the first place? Maybe they're a busy lot and so they have no time to settle my request? Wait. Was it even an request? Okay, maybe I'm making a big deal out of a small matter.

Once again, that paragraph wasn't meant to create any rifts between anyone.

We always know our mistakes. Yet, we don't bother to correct our mistakes perfectly. Why? We think that living with our mistakes is okay. It doesn't matter that we still make the same mistake, as long as we attempt to change our mistake. Failure or success in not making the same mistake again does not seem to be the main objective. Rather, what seems to be more important is to only know our mistakes. But what's the use of just knowing our mistakes? It take alot more, to know and then correct our mistake PERFECTLY. Maybe, just maybe, because our mistakes have become a habit, they're hard to break. So maybe we shouldn't allow mistakes to become habits? It's easy to know your mistakes, but it takes something more, to learn and not repeat the same mistake.

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MIDNIGHT!/ Sunday, January 14, 2007

I dreamt about some odacians yesterday! I was standing outside the odac board and then I saw xx and xxx. Like those tv dramas scene, xx was running to nexus holding out her hand and xxx went to hold her hands. And they started running together. Super weird the scene! Then the scene was switched to the last period of the day. The entire j2s had GP and PE time slot together. Our class would have our PE lesson first and then GP lecture. Strangely, we decided to take a short cut and walk through the audi to the PE dept. Already, the GP lecture had began in the audi. The lecturer was talking something about camps. Just as we were leaving through the audi doors in level 1, the lecturer flashed a picture of jiawen. In the photo, she was doing some activity and she looked super unglam there! Mummers filed the audi when we left that place. There was a change of scene again. Meiying, wynee and I were inside the 425 classroom. It was getting late, yet both of them did not want to go home yet. So I left first. There was a lot of people standing at the steps of the container block. It was pouring, so harmonica was having their orientation games there. And I saw my junior there! As I walked towards AJ square, the picture changed to the parade square of my primary school. And suddenly, I saw jingxin and yeehan hiding behind a pillar and looking for something to do. They were waiting for us. Both of them thought that we were having lessons and didn't want to disturb us. It was around 6plus then and all lessons had ended. I volunteered to bring them to where wynee and meiying were. As I walked with them and past by some sort of lounge, I saw my father there! It freaked me out since I didn't want my dad to see me with guys. Somemore I was being violent towards them! =X And then I woke up.

I wonder why I always have such weird dreams! Hmm.

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I lost my physics tys and umbrella! =( I don't know why I'm so careless. One moment I had them with me, and the next, they're gone. Thankfully, I managed to relocate back my phy tys. Kaiting accidently boughtly it home. I'll need to get another one otherwise. However, I couldn't find my umbrella. So, a new umbrella is added into my list of wants now. Sobx. Unlimited wants, limited rescources.

My class is full of funny ideas. We actually listened to oldies and hokkien and cartoon songs! During the hour break on thurs, we stayed in our homeroom, playing songs on the speaker, ranging from zhang xue yong's songs to the yi bai wan song (in hokkien) to captian planet and power ranger songs. It was quite a change, listening to those songs instead of the popular music that we so commonly hear today. No, 27/06 is neither deprived of childhood nor have we nothing better to do. It was perhaps, a moment of destressing ourselves?

I've got new shoes! Yays. My nike shoes was spoilt on fri..the soles of the shoe came off. So, I was walking around in school with flapping soles. Luckily, since the soles didn't came off that bad, I wasn't walking in an awkard manner. Today, my mom and I went to queensway to buy my new pair of shoes! =) I didn't have to fork out money for the shoes as well! yippee. New shoes to wear! One of my wants fulfilled!

ODAC on mon, wed and fri! We got to know our juniors during our first odac activity for them on fri. My first interaction with them! They are an enthusiastic batch. I do hope that it will continue to remain that way and that the turn out rate will continue to be good, or even better. :) And since we're planning a camp for the j2s, we've been staying back late on wed and fri to discuss details about the camp. It's the first time that I went home after 10pm from amk, tired out mentally, but more knowledgable, from the discussions we had.

Saturdays are precious days. Because there's no school, you can sleep as much as you can. And that's was what I did. I only woke up at noon. For the past few nights, I had been falling asleep in front of my table, trying to finish my homework. Deprived of sleep! It feels great, waking up without the disturbance of the alarm clock.

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MIDNIGHT!/ Sunday, January 07, 2007

Time flies! The first week of term one has come and go! Already on the first week, it has been filled with so many activities! busy busy busy. The timetable is out, and my class have a better timetable as compared to last year! Yays. But, all our tutorials are in our homeroom 415. It gets cold in there! Sobx. And it's the first week where I don't have yt and sel's company during lessons! Nonetheless, there's always the class company, so it's not that horrible.

ODAC activites on wednesday and friday! On wednesday, we cut firewood to prepare for the campfire. I never knew that sawing/ cutting/ hecking firewood can be so tiring! It's not an easy job. Quite interesting though. Though I've been to numerous campfires, it's my first time preparing for a campfire in which firewood of the required size is not provided. Friday was the actual day of the campfire. Except for some things which we overlooked, the campfire went on smoothly! Though perhaps it may not be the highlight of the orientation, all of us did learn alot from the campfire, from the setting up to managing..

Kayaking with meiying on sat, together with clement and jeremy. I've got to improve on my skills! They're not good enough..=(

Many a times, I assume too much, expect too much and think too much. Maybe that's why I get too sensitive and hurt easily?

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MIDNIGHT!/ Monday, January 01, 2007

How time flies! 2006 has come and gone, in a flash. It's been a great, busy and fruitful year for me. Throughout the past year, I've have had many first experiences, learnt many new things and made new friends. There were pleasant and wonderful moments, as well as hurting and sad moments. Whatever moments they were, 2006 has definitely been a year of love and thanksgiving.

I can still vividly remember my first 3 months spend in aj. How I miss the enjoyable days where we did not need to worry much about our studies! After the O's results were released, I continued to stay in aj, much as I wanted to go vj. But that was THEN. I'm glad that God has given me the opportunity to remain in aj, because in here, I've gotten and learn so much so much, be it knowledge or friendships. I'm touched that I've been able to receive so much from God. He really gave me alot, so much so that it won't be possible to list everything out. Because of God, all things were made possible. THANK YOU.

And also, a big thank you to all my friends out there. You people have made a difference to my life.

My dearest sel and yt! I love both of you loads and loads. Isn't it a miracle that the 3 of us could remain in the same class even after first 3 months? Throughout the past 12 months, we've spent so much time together, mugging, playing, crapping, what have you next...all the wonderful memories that we shared will always be kept in my mind. =) Thanks for listening to my complains as well! Let's work hard this year for our A's!

PAE 07/06, especially sidney! This paragraph is delicated to you! Though the class had some communication problem initially, all of us still managed to bond together in the end. We put aside our differences and spent the last week of PAE even more appreciating each other, didn't we? Besides that, the time spent during chinese lessons had been memorable as well. Listening to the never ending stories was fun and it never bore us because the chinese teacher made it some interesting. 10 of your company made it even better. Maths tutorials were always fun as well, wasn't it? I still remember how my scandal with gangkai started then, Barnabas! And to Sidney, you're one classmate whom I've kept in contact most after the first 3 months. You've been a wonderful friend, comforting and cheering me up whenever I feel sad. And of course, always appreciating my punches! =P

Now to my class, 27/06. *hugs* We've had so much fun together! I'm so thankful to be posted to this class! =) 12 girls, 12 guys. 12 from anderson sec, 4 from xinmin, 4 cedarians, 4 'others'. 1 class. Despite of our various background, we still mixed together well. Let's continue to keep the class spirit high and work hard for our academic work this year. We must not only be a well bonded class that knows how to play hard but also study hard! Jia you jia you!

My first 'boyfriend' meiying! Yes I agree with you. That rinjani picture is really the best pic that both of us took together. I can't remember when was the first time we met, but I'm definitely glad to have know you. Each time that I see you, your optimism never fails to brighten up my day! Xiexie. And you're the first peron, next to my family, whom I see consecutively for 14 days! Quite believable. This year, let's get our 3 star together, by june! :)

23rd comm ODACians. All of us have spent so much time together, especially during this holidays. We've ate, trekked, sleep, kayaked ... together. All the enriching experiences that we have together have made a deep impact in my life. I've learnt quite a bit from each and everyone of you. Thank you. For this year, let all of us be good instructors and role model to our juniors.

Super seniors jingxin and yeehan. Both of you have taught me alot and have given me lots of guidance, be it with regards to ODAC or otherwise. I don't really know how to put it in words, so I'll just say: thank you.

Thank you my friends, for impacting my life and making a difference.

It's a new year today. It's going to be a new start. This year, I want to make sure that I practice good time management. It's not going to be an easy task, managing between my academic work, cca and friends. And that's why that's my resolution for this year. I want to enjoy ODAC activites and at the same time, ensure that my school work is not neglected. And of course, life is not only about school and odac. I won't want to neglect my friends and family as well. This year, cliche as it might sound, I want to remind myself everyday that I should live my life to the fullest and appreciate all that God has provided me with.

Getting from the unknown stage to the knowing stage isn't easy. To move on from there and become even more competent is even harder. But if you have the correct mindset, you'll be able to do it.

When you have a goal in mind, make sure you have the correct attitude and mindset. Then, work hard towards achieving it.

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