What does my future lies?

MIDNIGHT!/ Thursday, April 30, 2009

One more paper left to go!!!!

Sigh. I don't feel good about my paper today. :( It's not like I couldn't answer the questions. I'm just not confident of my answers. I hope it'll all go well man!

And yes. I only just realised that Friday is a public holiday. There's going to be a long weekend. It doesn't matter to me now though. Not when it's the mugging period and my last paper is on monday. Everyday is a mugging day to me, period. I'm getting sick of it already. So looking forward to activities after exams! I've already got my 'to do' list done. And I pray hard that the swine flu will not affect our lives! I wanna go for holidays and camps and activities!!!

I had such a horrible dream yesterday night. I dreamt that I woke up late for my exam and had to take a cab to school. The cab could only take one passenger (which was me), because the other seats were taken by the driver's family members. And then she had a son who had learnt German so I was conversing with the son in German. I remembered clearly too that I woke up at 9am and was going to be late for my exams cos the paper was going to start at 11am. zZz. That dream woke me up man. And it was only 7am when I checked my watch. So I went back to sleep again until 9am since mine was an afternoon paper. -.-

Took bus95 to dover mrt just now. And the bus was crowded, because many had just finished their evening papers and was on their way home. Thankfully I had boarded the bus earlier and had a seat. And I observed something shocking during the shocking. At the nuh bus stop, the bus driver didn't open the front entrance for passengers to board the bus, since the bus was already filled. He just opened the rear entrance so that people could alight. Immediately when the rear door opened, people started boarding the bus. yes BOARDING. zomg. I was totally appalled when I saw it. And the attitude I noticed on their face was "I so deserve to board this bus. Who cares if I'm boarding from the front or the rear. Boarding from the rear is even better because I dont need to pay for the bus fare." Hmm. I can only conclude, Singaporeans are still kiasu people. Why can't they just wait for the next bus?! It's after work hours already! They should relax and wait for a less crowded bus. More peace anyway.

Past. Present. Future
4/30/2009 12:17:00 AM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Monday, April 27, 2009

Sigh. My chinese proficiency is deteriorating! Sobs sobs. I was watching the chinese news on tv and I realise I didn't completely understand all the chinese terms which the newscaster was saying. Oh man! What has fass done to me?! LOL. Not like I'm churning out fantastic essays either. zZz. Language proficiency going down the hill! :( Got to read more read more! Okay I shall hit the national library during the holidays and get myself good books to read! Siti please recommend some good books to me! heh.

Second paper down this afternoon! Zomg. Rushed like mad to completed 4 essay questions in 2hours. I feel that I could have written more, especially the last question! And I'm not sure if it's a good idea that this module is an openbook paper. It's probably just a psychological thingy for me. I don't feel secure doing an openbook paper. It feels like the standard is higher and I'm not certain of my answers too. Like all other rational students, I wanna do well. But I also know that the results will be based on the bell curve and I'm not sure where I stand for this module.

2 more papers left! It's going to be econs, econs and more econs for the entire week. This time next week, I'll be playing! Without worries then because I am going to mug real hard now! That's only effective when I study in school though. Studying at home isn't effective at all! -.-

Haix. I suddenly feel so demoralised! Fluctuating mood swings? Or maybe the after-effect of studying at the demoralising science library.

Oh yes. I was looking at the news website and found out that 猪流感 isn't pig flu in english but swine flu! And the definition of swine is 'any of various omnivorous, even-toed ungulates of the family Suidae, including pigs, hogs, and boars, having a stout body with thick skin, a short neck, and a movable snout'. Definition quoted from www. dictionary.com. Haa. Anyway fyi, the virus particles can be spread through coughs and sneezes. Victims report fevers, coughs and headaches.

On a random note, the weather has been erratic! SO HOT SO HOT SO HOT. AND SO HUMID. The fan is now permanently blowing directly at me. And there's no need to switch on the heater when bathing either. Haha. Drink more water and stay under the shade people!! Easy to fall sick with such weather :)

Another random note! Yesterday, I dreamt that I was at NUS High Graduation ceremony and those kids on stage were wearing tailor made business suits giving speech. My dreams are totally rubbish and random and makes no sense right?

Past. Present. Future
4/27/2009 10:03:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Saturday, April 25, 2009

One paper down!!! Only 3 more papers to go! JIA YOU!

South Asia paper today was quite okay. But an okay paper is not enough! I need to do well for my final paper so that my overall grade is okay!!! I can't do anything now since I've already sat for the paper, but I hope it'll turn out fine! *prays hard* And I haven't written 3 essays under 2 hours for so long that my left hand hurt after I finished all 3 essays. =x

Ohoh. And it was my first time taking a paper at Prince George's Park residences! That place is totally out of the way. I had to take a bus to school, then change to the school shuttle bus to get to PGP. While at PGP, there wasn't any clear sign where the exam venue was either. The security guard said it was to be held at the mph and said we had to go down the stairs. But a few of us just couldn't find the stairs, until we saw a crowd of people heading towards it. -.- It's like hidden from view!

The afternoon was certainly productive, because I managed do some mugging in the science library. I took a short nap in between, and had a totally senseless/random/scary dream about the china emperor being inside a car with the driver driving in a reverse manner and me as a passenger. The entire scenario was set in those ancient times. HMMM. I totally wasn't studying china at all but my marketing module then! -.- And that dream so disturbed me I felt so drained after that. That on top of that fact that I had woke up at 6am this morning for my 9am paper. Mentally draining!!

Past. Present. Future
4/25/2009 10:44:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Friday, April 24, 2009

Whee. I had a great birthday yesterday! *grins*

Actually, the celebration started on wednesday night. Meiying, laimun, lance and ss turned up at my doorstep near midnight with a cake and present and a candle that can play the birthday music! Haha. They'd conspired together with siti and tak! Hmmph. Siti and tak were to ensure that I leave the school by 9pm so that I would be home by 11pm and meiying tricked me by saying she had SIE things to discuss with me and needed me to be online. I didn't suspect anything much then. Then I suddenly had a call from laimun who said that she was near my house and wanted to seek shelter cos it was pouring. Sensing something amiss, I opened my house door and they were just standing there trying to light the candle when the wind was so strong. -.- It was certainly a surprise, because I didn't expect them to turn up at my house!! THANKS guys!! :D I'll make use of the buff and honey stars! The honey stars already half gone cos I'll snack on it while mugging. Haha.

Then on my special day afternoon, I met up with yiting for lunch! We went to crystal jade at centrepoint and had korean food. The ginseng chicken is niceee! We tried their korean tea too. And it's quite nice too, totally different from the japanese tea. It's just a different taste altogether.

After lunch, it was back to school mugging. SOBSS. What to do. Exam period must study! So I studied at sci library (my first time there! LOL) with siti. And the other cp guys (tak, sentil, weiliang, kenneth and jianting) were there too. My mind's full of India, Sri Lanka, Pakistan and Bangladesh now. Haha.

Then came dinner where siti conspired with my other cp teammates! -.- At about 7.30pm, she started to hurry me to go for dinner. I was told Simin and huiyi were waiting for me to have dinner. We were supposed to have dinner at the staff club restaurant near the pool there. Then when I walked in, I suddenly heard people singing happy birthday. Dang. I was quite shocked, cos almost the entire team plus my coach turned up! And cos I left the sci library late, they were hurrying me to place my order because the last order was at 8.30pm. All this while without blowing out my candle. -.- And my teammates got me a world map! Wheee. Now I can just stare at my world map and learn the countries' location. hahaha. THANKS blizzards and mummy lizard! (: Ooh. Mummy lizard told me that I had the same birthday as ariel too! Such a small world, really. Thanks tak too for your lego kayak gift! HAA. :D

And I love my brother loads! Hahaha. He seriously dotes on me ALOT. He got me an adidas jacket!! *faint* It's so expensive can. Yet he's willing to spend the money! THANK YOUUU. (:

I went for water training after dinner. And that pretty much sums up how I spend my 20th birthday! Surprises here and there, coupled with mugging for exams.

A big THANK YOU to everyone who made my special day even more special! haha. Thanks daddy and mommy and yt for the birthday call! Thanks meiying, laimun, lance, ss, siti, huiyi, simin, kq, aga, yuxuan, clara, tak, lizard and yt for spending the day with me! Thanks jerlyn, wilson, ariana, desmond, alex, simin, siti, xiangfeng, zichao, lance, li ren, fengnan, meiying, benson, vincent, huizhen, jinyum indra, eugene, laimun, lizard, jeremy, henrietta, aga, ryan and daron for your birthday messages! Thanks richard, tak, jasmine, jj, xiaowei, kq, sel, lingling, jacinth, sidney, melissa, weiyee, cheryl, annaling, jac, janica, cindy, jeremiah and xinyun for your online and fb messages! Thanks janice, junhui, kenneth and jiawen for your belated wishes! :D

Past. Present. Future
4/24/2009 04:02:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Saturday, April 18, 2009

Saw this sign posted inside the toilet cubicles of century square. I think the sign is placed in an inappropriate place. I mean, who's going to take your belongings while you're inside the cubicle?! Even a peeping tom won't do that right. Shouldn't they place such signs at the sink area? Or change the sign to something like "Please check that you have not left anything behind.".

Was at tp today for a service quality course organised for the ayg volunteers. Met new faces and we were taught how we should be presenting ourselves to the public during the games. I thought the lecturer went abit fast on some subjects which I feel would have made the course more effective. He went through concepts, but he skimmed through the application part, which is important in my opinion.

That aside, I saw Jacqueline at Tampines 1 today!! Miss her loads la. I haven't met up with her for ages. So glad to see that she's doing well!! (: After exams babe!

Past. Present. Future
4/18/2009 11:23:00 PM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Friday, April 17, 2009

I think I suffer from terrible mood swings. Maybe it's just this word EXAMS that's why. Was in the library for a straight 6h today, with a short nap in between. Managed to cover some econs topics today, but I think I should start picking up pace..HMM. Luckily for siti's 4star video that kept me entertained just now otherwise I'll probably be emo-ing! zZz. Meiying ah. Super funny. And I so am NOT UNGLAM.

Oh yes. Yt dropped me a message today asking if I would be free to go out with her next thursday. I happily replied that I would be in school mugging and then would go for pool slot to destress. Then she asked if I had any intention of going out for a day during the exams period and I was wondering why she asked that question. And then I realised why! Zomg. Getting so blur nowadays. Once again, it's the EXAM effect so there's just too many things on my mind. Haa.

Wishlist!

Oakley shades.
Addidas windbreaker.
Canon camera.
Sony ericsson hp.
World map.
NUM slippers.
Sony headphones.
Storybooks.
Photobook that can fit all my pictures.
Tops.
Shorts.
The Economists subscription. -.-
Sports channel subscription!
CD compilation of the latest chi and eng songs!
Crumpler bag.

And many many more that I can't think of at the moment. LOL.

Sometimes I just wish others could make the decision for me. Then I won't need to be so troubled over which option to choose. Because I myself ain't even clear what I want exactly. And i don't want to regret any decision that I (will) make.

Past. Present. Future
4/17/2009 12:24:00 AM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Tuesday, April 14, 2009

1 module down, 4 more modules to study for!!!

Sigh. Just finished my marketing presentation. I didn't think my group did a very good job at presenting. In fact it feels like we screwed it. :( I hope it's just my own pessimistic thinking!! The lecturer kept reiterating that we need to work on our financials before we hand in our final submission or he'll give us demerit grades. zZz. Okay. Cannot think about it already because it's already over! Just got to work on our final report and the final paper! JIA YOU!

Yesterday's German test was nicht so gut. The listening component was so tough! And the graphic portion. I probably filled in rubbish for that part.

Exams period coming up so there's not going to be cp training. :( :( :( Good because we can use the time to study, though it's another question altogether if this time can be used effectively on revision. Bad because i'm not used to not heading to the school pool for trainings. Bleah.

Past. Present. Future
4/14/2009 09:33:00 AM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Monday, April 13, 2009

Saturday was an exciting day!!! Blizzards played 3 matches, against SP Ladies, Black Crooks and Titians. We may have lost 2 matches, but we certainly put up a great fight!!! Blizzards were on-form yesterday. (: And we won our final match!!! The final match came with karma though.

Our first game was against SP Ladies. Amazingly enough, I got both 1st balls. Somehow, the ball ended up on my side when I thought I didn't manage to get it. Hmm. Ball possession for this game wasn't good enough however. We lost 2 goals to fast-breaks at the second half. That said, I think we put up a good fight, especially in the first half, where the score was 1-0. The final scoreline was 4-0. That's a worse score as opposed to our previous match against them where we only lost 2-0. Oh wells. Some random comment, I totally didn't appreciate the commentator during our match. He seemed quite surprised that Blizzards could get the first ball and that we could hold ball possession for a reasonable amount of time. zZz.

The second game was against black crooks, where we played better! Many actually thought we'd draw the game, since the score was 0-0 at the first half. That didn't happen though; blizzards conceded 2 goals in the second half. What we managed to do however, was to get black crooks to draw a team green for obstruction. Sid was subsequently given a yellow card and sent off. The fact that we managed to minimise the scoreline was because kq and hy played well. They blocked off many attempts at the goalpost. And when black crooks had fast break opportunities, they weren't able to capitalise on it and score.

Our last game was against titians and it was the most exciting match. We wanted very much to win this match and we knew that we stood a chance of winning. We had drawed against them previously, but we wanted to win this time round. And that's what we did. It was raining heavily with lighting before the game, so our final game was delayed. I think it was 6pm when we started the game.

Titians had the ball first, but then came a changeover and kaiqi scored. All of us were ecstatic when she scored! The team morale went a few notches higher and we played even more aggressively. Perhaps because of that we were given a warning for obstruction in the first half. We had pushed out our defence when the first warning came. We were told that no obstruction was allowed beyond the 6m mark. Come second half and it was a more intense period. Titians had the ball possession most of the time. There came a period where Jackson the ref blew the whistle and called for blizzards' team captain. We don't a team captain, but I had gone to him when he gave the first warning. When he called for the captain again however, I wasn't sure if I was supposed to go to him since I was subbing out so I shouted at aga to go to Jackson. Then Jackson looked at me and shouted something like "How many captains do you have? Are you the captain or is she the captain?" Zzz. I didn't know la! So I went up to him and then he gave us a team green. :( :( :( A while later, Jackson blew the whistle again, and gave aga a yellow card for obstruction. Blur Aga wanted to continue playing even after she was given the yellow card. -.- Classic moment. Us and the ref had to shout at her to go out. Less than a minute later, Jackson blew the whistle again, and this time round, gave Simin the yellow card. :( So it was down to 3 of us against 5 of them. We were seriously worried that we won't be able to win the game now. Fortunately for us, Titians didn't manage to score even with only 3 of us inside. They had clustered together. We defended well too. Yx played well, managing to block off some passes with her paddle. Then came the last few seconds where there was still only 4 of us inside and Titians had the ball. The last shot they attempted went in. Immediately, titians and np supporters started cheering. We were stunned. Then came the ref's whistle and his hand signal that the goal wasn't allowed because the game had ended. We were of course relived, and started screaming. We had won, against titians. GOOD JOB BLIZZARDS. :)

When we had settled everything, we went for our post competition team dinner. Initially we wanted to go Holland V, but we overshot that stop. Then we wanted to go to the Swensens' besides Paragon but found out that it was closed. And so we ended at ps Swensens', where we had a good laugh/talk about our matches. On a side note, I think Swensens' service has deteriorated. We were already sitting comfortably when they asked 4 of us to shift to another table. And they took a long time in coming to take our orders. Certainly not the type of service that i'm looking for.

Past. Present. Future
4/13/2009 12:05:00 AM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Ich bin müde, weil ich klein schlafen habe. Gestern habe ich um 03:00 Uhr geschlaft. Am näschtes morgen um 06:30 Uhr habe ich aufgeweckt.
(I'm tired cos I didn't have enough sleep last night! I slept at 3am and woke up at 6.30am this morning. sleepyy!!)

I'm in a cranky mood and probably going to be feeling that way for the next few weeks, with final exams coming up. So much to study!!! Stress stress stress!!! Then there's SIE planning too! But it's more or less done already so 1 less thing to worry about at the moment first. I hope everything will turn out fine! CP competition coming to an end after this weekend, which means more time to study. I hope I fully utilise all my free time to study!!

Had an interesting conversation over lunch yesterday, where one of my og crashee shared with us his tattoos stories. He told us why he'd gotten those tattoos and the significance behind them. It was certainly insightful, especially since it's the first time I'm hearing stories of why people would want to have tattoos on their bodies.

Struggles we face in life are there for a reason. We'll grow stronger when we come out from such struggles.

Past. Present. Future
4/08/2009 12:53:00 AM <3

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MIDNIGHT!/ Monday, April 06, 2009

Second weekend of the SPCPOC weekend..blizzards played 3 matches; against Monsters, NTU1 and NUS High. I wouldn't say that we've played well at all for this com, be it the first weekend or second weekend. Perhaps we played better during the second weekend when one compares it to our first game, but we definitely could have played better.

The match against NTU1 was especially exciting, what's with the referee giving green/yellow cards to both teams. Blizzards was given the yellow card for illegal substitution while NTU1 was given a team green for obstruction and subsequently, yellow cards to some players. So it came to a point where 3 of us blizzards were playing against 5 of the NTU players. Then came the switch during the second half, where it was 3 of them NTU against 5 of us blizzards. While we were bewildered during the game over why so many fouls were called for, blizzards still got thrashed. Sigh. =/

Last weekend of the games coming up. Blizzards have 3 more games on Saturday. Let's make sure we're on form to play. JIA YOU BABES. <3

Rewinding back to last friday, Siti and I met up to run at the school track. I haven't been training much for the upcoming sundown marathon. I'm only running once a week now?! *faints* Got to run longer and more frequently! After the run, we went to throw ball and I was asked by one of the senior guys which one of us was a malay. -.- Do I look that non-chinese?! Met up with meiying after that at boonkeng to pass her SIE stuff and we both had good laughs. (:

Past. Present. Future
4/06/2009 05:26:00 PM <3

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