What does my future lies?

MIDNIGHT!/ Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Demoralised.

It’s really demoralizing when you’re put in so much effort on a particular thing yet the result that you receive at the end of the day is crap. The result that you receive simply doesn’t justify the amount of hard work that you’ve put in.And one moment you feel really happy and good because you’ve completed your assignments but the next thing you know you feel very rubbish and crap. And that’s because you’ve received the assignment that you wrote and completed and received a horrible grade. Grades that you feel you don’t deserve because you know you’ve put in quality time for that work and you feel good about your assignment. Then you put the blame on having not so smart brain cells and wonder how come others can score As so easily and can get a cap of 5.0.

Perhaps it’s about finding a breakthrough. But when you’re stuck at that particular level for so long, it’s just hard to hit the next level. Without breaking new boundaries though, how can one improve?

I hate it when people say words that they don’t mean it. Yet I make am guilty of saying words that I very well know I don’t mean it. I’m just giving the politically correct answer you see. I hate politics and I’m glad I’m not part of what’s going on. I may not agree but I’ll respect the decision made. And it’s just not me to not care about what’s going on, even if it’s not part of my responsibility. Somehow, I feel that something has to be done. If only I be not bothered by the issue and say whatever, really meaning what I say.

In economics, we're assumed to be rational people, and make decisions that will benefit us the most. To put it crudely, it's another way of saying that people are selfish and care more about themselves than about other people. They prefer things to go their way and don't really care about what others think, unless that thought is similar to his/her own thoughts. In the same way, God wants us to obey Him and His words and live according to His will, not our will. He tries to convince us that it is only when we live according to His will and obey Him that we may enter Heaven after we die and live together with Him. We are convinced of that because we want to lead an eternal happy life in Heaven, not one of anguish and suffering in hell. Does He listen and care about us? He does, otherwise He wouldn't have send his Son Jesus down to earth to establish the link between us. The assumption though, is that we believe and have faith in Him. Then He'd listen to us and answer our prayers. No I'm not saying that God is selfish. All these thoughts were just floating around my mind so I thought I'll write it out and try and make sense of this new sense. Understand?

When it's a bad day, you just don't want to talk to your friends but you hope that your friends can understand you and try to cheer you up.My brother's right. My mood fluctuates very easily.

Past. Present. Future
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