MIDNIGHT!/ Monday, October 16, 2006
welcome to the loser blog. you're reading a post put up by a loser. yupp. that's me. everything about me sucks. i don't have any good qualities at all. my character sucks, my results sucks. there's nothing great or even average about me.
YEA YEA. you're not measured by your results, but by what you do. i should not have poor faith in myself. i shouldnt give up so easily. Work harder next time, you'll be able to do better next year. YEA. and you should believe you can do it. what matters now is whether or not you can get promoted. you didnt do so badly after all. You have just one subpass and passed your gp and phy. so you shouldnt fell so sad! there's always next year. there are people out there who are worse of than you. people who are doing worse than you and yet they don't think as i do. YEA YEA.
everyone is UNIQUE and thus entitled to their own thinking. so why can't i think that way? because it'll lead to my own doom? and it's not about camparing results. you'll come to a stage where comparing results means nothing to you. sure, your friends around you do better than you, but so what? you have no one to blame other than yourself. so i'm blaming about myself now.
shocked? saddened?
YEA YEA. i need conselling.
EXPECTATIONS. the higher you set, the harder you fall. but surely expecting a pass after the effort put in is not asking for too much?
YEA. now's not the time to debate about how much effort you have put in, but how you should learn from your mistakes and work harder next time. practise more, ask if you don't know and always complete all the work given to you. yea yea. pick up yourself and move on. there's more to live than just studies. YEA YEA.
sure it'll work, when you say that to someone who has had a smooth going life and his predicament is small. like mine? YEA. so i'm supposed to take all the wrong thoughts out of my head.
so many next years do we have? how many more tomorrows do we have? who knows, maybe i won't even have a tomorrow. maybe tonight i'll just eat lots and lots of medicine and tomorrow i'll wake up dead from having an overdose. then people will just grief for a while but will continue to move on with their lives. who will care and care and care? fact: everyone is busy with their own lives and who would care about other people's lives? you? by reading this post, you care? or are you just being a kpo and then gossip about what i have written in this post? then there'll be a the talk that attempting sucide/ commiting sucide is wrong. YEA. those who do that are stupid. well, i'm STUPID, don't you know?
whatever. even i myself don't know what i want to write about. or what i want to say. or what i intend to do now. or what i should be thinking.
YEA. i should have all the correct moral value and beliefs and i should have faith in God. yea. i do have faith in God and I love Him. I just don't love myself and see no need to love myself. what for? after all the effort which i have put in, it just goes to show that study = fails. *claps* mr hong's equation has been proven. i'm immature and don't know how to deal with failures. any more things to add?so what now? any more new things?
Past. Present. Future
10/16/2006 11:59:00 AM <3
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